Hideous, hideous day really 🙁
I was an ogre from the pits of darkness and the kids responded accordingly and were equally horrid. I was mean and bullying and frankly sat there dreaming of creative ways to be cruel to my kids in a Dave Peltzers Mom sort of fashion (told you it was dark!) while they did assorted misdemeanours including getting nail varnish on the carpet, drawing on the sofa, emptying pretty much all the toys over all the floors in the house, shouting and squabbling with each other, whining about each other to me, being sent to their rooms, crying and begging forgiveness and apologising like poor little ‘please don’t beat us or turn us out onto the street mummy’ style actors worthy of becomming the nations favourite hard done by urchin in the style of Coronation Street’s Chesney and then repeating the same crime within moments.
Kids eh? Like blokes really, the meaner you treat ’em the more needy and dependant and affection craving they get…..
which leads me rather nicely onto my beloved, who after dashing off to Cricklewood with my keys and getting a somewhat less than ‘oh don’t worry darling, it’s really not serious’ type response when he rang to tell me then proceeded to ring me pretty much every hour through the day putting on puppy dog eyes (well implying them with his voice anyway) and trying to use his guilt to make me forgive him! Grr! He even started suggesting ”fun’ pursuits for me to take my mind off being trapped in the house with the evil twins!!!
It was just one of those days where I would have relished a really good on list debate about something I feel passionate about. Oh how I wish an anti-abortion campaigner had rung my doorbell today, or someone to ask why Davies has not accepted a school place yet, or someone with a clipboard trying to sell me something I really don’t need. Ah well, probably for the best. Although in my fantasy my rage would render me articulate beyond belief, ready to take on the worthiest opponent at verbal battle and wipe the floor with them I would have been more likely to fold at the first good point they made, tell them to fuck off and die and run sobbing to my room, slamming the door as I flung myself across my bed moaning about it all being ‘not fair!’
Ady got home and witnessed my final run in of the day with Scarlett before I gave up and went to the library. I pretended some books were due back today but really they had another week left, but I had a lovely half an hour looking round the kids section briefly then going upstairs to the reference bit and sitting down with a book about freelance writing 🙂 Borrowed a heap of books, wandered round the Co-op to get some bits for dinner and came home to find my parents here and both kids still up. Grr again!
I think they were angling for a dinner invite but none was forthcomming so they left and I am about to have my first wine (to go with my 387th whine!). Didn’t dare start before now otherwise I would have been in a stupor by now either trying to buy an online divorce and sell the kids on ebay or gone the other way and gotten all soppy and full of love for everyone, neither of which I would feel happy with in the morning!
Tomorrow is TT1 and TT2 and then a short weekend (yep, ours will be the standard two day one instead of the three day one which many of you will be enjoying) but never mind.
Have had three emails today from people either interested in joining WAG group, wanting more info about HE or looking into the idea of it. Fought the urge to reply with ‘send them to school. send them now. keep them home at your peril and at serious risk to your sanity’ and have replied with what I hope to be friendly and helpful advice demonstrating how calm and rational your average HE mother is and what a positive and happy making lifestyle choice it is!
Have also been exchanging emails with a friend who I had when we were 16. She worked weekends in my parents restuarant and we used to go out clubbing and following other underage teenage pursuits together of an evening. We lost contact until about 2 years ago when one of us traced the other through friendsreunited. I had just had Tarly and she was expecting her first girl. She has just had a baby boy and emailed me for a catch up only to find we are both back in Sompting again!
She is living, quite literally round the corner with her parents, her husband and their two children from us. Spookily she has also been contemplating the idea of HE but wondered whether it was feasible with 2 children! She’s coming round next week for a 14 year catch up session and for the small people to all meet up. So looking forward to that too.
don’t you hate it when your kids beg you … its all manipulation of course.
have to admit I didn’t raed properly cos I’m drunk again but sorry for a crappy day & I love fantasy rages but they’re never quite as good irl.
Comment by layla — 26 May 2005 @ 9:25 pm
i would have read but ther words were moving
Comment by layla — 26 May 2005 @ 9:25 pm
giggle @ Layla and ((Nic)) if I dare. Glad it ended on a positive note. How weird to see each other for the first time in 14 years. Can’t imagine meeting anyone from my teens who I’m not still in touch with anyway. Or at least in the last, say, 5.
Comment by Barbara — 26 May 2005 @ 10:33 pm
It must be the moon. Its been horrid here too today. (((Nic)))
Comment by Merry — 26 May 2005 @ 11:02 pm
By contrast, as is obligatory, it’s been rather improved here. Hohum.
Comment by jax — 26 May 2005 @ 11:09 pm
hmm, and we had a nice day yesterday too. The crap ones happen to us all, though. Hope today’s better, Nic!
Comment by Sarah — 27 May 2005 @ 6:54 am
aw (((Nic))), make sure you get Ady to *really* make it up to you 😉
If it’s any consolaton we frequently have one day weekends but this will be a two day one 🙂 but he’ll be assignment writing 🙁
Comment by Heather — 27 May 2005 @ 8:49 am
(((hugs))) from me, think we can all empathise with days like that.
Comment by Jules — 27 May 2005 @ 9:07 am
Hope today is better. As is obligitary here, we are having a “no day” weekend, as Bob has been off the last two days while I’ve been at work, so could have a vurtual BH on Monday 🙂
Comment by Joyce — 27 May 2005 @ 9:44 am
Ergh, what a day, poor you. And sorry you aren’t getting the full bank holiday benefit. We are, but I missed a lot of the last 2 as I had deadlines.
How lovely to be meeting your old friend, hope it goes well.
Comment by Ali — 27 May 2005 @ 10:47 am
Hope today goes better – I’m getting lots of calls too. Lovely to have old friend in contact 🙂
Comment by Jenny — 27 May 2005 @ 11:53 am