Was not going to blog today as have had such a crappy one but I am feeling a bit more balanced and less like I should be carted off to some safe environment for the health and safety of myself and others so I will do cos I could do with the virtual hugs.
Its been a really crappy week actually – Davies has had the pox, his first ‘real’ illness. Although he has probably had a mild dose in terms of being ill with it there is something very disturbing about seeing your child covered in chicken pox spots and being able to do very little about it – Merry and others who have had far scarier experiences with the pox, you have my complete sympathy. Ady has been working 12 hour days including both bank holidays which always makes me feel like a single mother 🙁 , my parents being away is always an odd feeling – although they are not hugely helpful when they are here something dramatic always happens while they are on one of their trips (the first time they did a big trip abroad I found out I was pregnant with Davies, the second trip was when Ady’s sister died and this time there was the pox happening in our house and the earthquake panic over there last night). So I am tired, feeling under pressure to do work for Miranda which I am feeling uninspired about and seriously doubting the whole HE thing atm. I know it is the best thing for the kids but I am not at all convinced that I am cut out for being a Home Educator… not sure where to go from here really, I know I am not feeling rational about any aspect of my life at the moment (aside from my marriage and frankly given the mad evil bitch woman I am being Ady is probably having his own doubts about that one) so I am better shelving any sort of decision making or dwelling on it for now until I am in the right frame of mind to do it justice.
I’ve lost my thread a bit here actually as there was just an almighty crash and I ran to the window to see our opposite neighbours car about 30 foot away from where it should be and a smashed up car in its place, two cars had stopped behind it and the drivers were both getting out and running to the crashed car. I yelled out the window to see if they wanted an ambulance and Ady called all the emergency services while I dashed out with a blanket.
The other two drivers and I stood talking to the guy trying to keep him conscious and get as much information about him as we could including failed phonecalls to his wife and son to let them know what had happened. I knocked on the door of the neighbour who’s car had been hit to tell him and then hung about giving statements and so on while the poor bloke was cut out of his car and eventually taken away unconscious by ambulance. I hope he’s going to be ok. Sort of puts my crap in perspective really doesn’t it…
hope driver ok too.
on home ed front, we are all here cos we question things. one of those things being everything we do!
you’re right to mull over things regularly, its the way to make sure ther are no ruts around your wheels!
hugs anyway.
hope my answers to q not too crap!
Comment by HelenJ — 29 March 2005 @ 10:10 pm
Yeek!
that’s one kind of perspective setting no one needs….be kind to yourself – I bet you’re in shock.
Comment by jax — 29 March 2005 @ 10:11 pm
oh ((((Nic))))
You have had a bit of a rough week, and today doesn’t sound much better. Really sorry to hear all the crappy stuff. Still hope you can turn it around, keep blogging, that usually does the trick. Will be thinking of you xx.
Comment by Sarah — 29 March 2005 @ 10:15 pm
yep, and all that on top of an already rough week. (((Nic)))
thinking of you.
Comment by Sarah — 29 March 2005 @ 10:15 pm
oh bum. didn’t think that first comment had worked so I reposted it. Oh well, triple hugs then!
Comment by Sarah — 29 March 2005 @ 10:16 pm
My brother relates how he was cut out of a car to the accompaniment of a bystander who kept shouting “What about my fence?….Who’s going to pay for my fence?”
Comment by Tim — 29 March 2005 @ 11:12 pm
Oh Nic (((hugs))) from me too, and can fully empathise with the doubting feelings right now. I’m struggling to hang on in there.
My thoughts are with you.
I hope the driver is okay.
Comment by Jules — 30 March 2005 @ 7:46 am
F+++, Shit and damn. I just typed a long, thoughtful and supportive comment, and the bloody thing has eaten it as firefox hasn’t imported the name and email info. Anyway, take it as read.
Comment by Joyce — 30 March 2005 @ 10:57 am
(((((Nic))))) Every time you have a crap week for some unknown reason I haven’t read the blogs quick enough. I will ring you tomorrow – that is Thursday by this time LOL Sorry you had a crap day/week/crash incident – hope he is OK and you too. xxxxx
Comment by Karen b — 30 March 2005 @ 9:48 pm