is sort of how I felt today. Lots of stuff happened, plenty of it good but I was too busy blowing my nose, coughing and spluttering, propping my eyelids open and generally being introspective so I was aware it was there and happening but only via a long tunnel with kaliedoscope edges making it all twinkly!
It was the first session at our new venue for Home Ed group today and I have to confess to failing miserably to engage with it at all. I was slightly opposed to it moving anyway; both time, day and venue and TBH Monday morning the other side of town is simply not the best for me. On the plus side I am no longer key holding and as such don’t feel anywhere near the sort of responsibility for it that I previously did, which is a good thing. Hayley and I have agreed that we will give it til the end of the year before deciding whether to carry on. My current feeling is that unless either of us gets a visit from some sort of angel we are unlikely to be inclined to carry on really, but I am slightly relieved to have an end to it in sight. This time last year we were about to launch it (we being Jenny and I, which perhaps accounts for some of my feelings towards the whole thing) and I was filled with enthusiasm, passion and excitement about it. Approaching a year on we have been in at least 5 different venues, the only people still in the original cast list are me and Julie and it has long since ceased to be anything to fill me with little other than a sense of duty and resignation. Time to call it a day I reckon.
Today was as any other day really, we had four families including one new person who was lovely. The new venue is fab, we had got loads of stuff from the Resources Centre where Allie works (fab stuff Allie 🙂 ) which went down really well – stuff like balancing toys, bucket stilts, one of those pedals and wheels things and the theme was fireworks so there were various crafty activities on offer. Davies and Scarlett quite enjoyed it, we played on the balancing toys together, Davies made a loo roll firework, Tarly made a sticking picture and then helped me sweep the floor. I spent quite a time chatting to the new lady who is a mother of four, journalist with an actor husband who was also there just finishing the last half term for her two eldest children who are in school currently and trying out every home ed group locally to reassure herself there is plenty ‘out there’ so although we are unlikely to see them at group again I think we might stay in touch as we clicked and she had loads more questions than I could answer with a very rough voice and two children plucking at my clothing.
Left there and came home as Tarly had fallen asleep in the car. Arrived home to find a message from Joyce to say her and Bob would not be coming over for dinner tonight after all, which was a slight relief as I am now planning to be in bed by about 10pm with olbas oil on my pillow and vaseline all round my nose and a bellyfull of lemsip instead 🙂
Spent the afternoon alternately refereeing squabbles from two very tired and irritable children (Tarly also not well so far from her best) and doing some of this week’s crop of CVs (hurrah! paying work!) while Davies built a plastic train set and watched Thomas on DVD and Tarly brought me a stream of books to read to her (in the style of Bonnie Tyler obviously as my voice is now croaky and husky! Karaoke doing Rockin’ Good Way would be fab if I could only find my Shaky!).
Finally lost all my last shreds of patience and good motherliness when Ady got home so buggered off to the library and the supermarket to stock up on stuff for the next two nights – home alone as Ady is working away although I do have Ros and Joyce coming for a girlie night tomorrow 🙂 which I am sure will do me good! Am now sitting on Davies’ bedroom floor, already in pjs doing a mental stocktake of the drugs in the house with cold and flu relieving properties – I’m thinking the brandy might be my preferance!
Oh and finally, thank you Chris & Alison 😉
Please go to bed!
If you are too ill for tomorrow say so, if you are well enough for us but not cooking tell me and I can bring food for all.
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Comment by Roslyn — 31 October 2005 @ 9:58 pm