Didn’t know what I wanted to be…

I seem to be doing a big old life shake up at the moment. Brought on by the whole finances thing I have decided that a policy of honesty and doing what is right for me, Ady and the children is my top priority. Not sure it’s ever been anything different really but I have been a bit dragged under by real or imagined obligations which needed shaking off.

Last night I sat planning what to take to Home Ed group with the same Sunday night, back to school in the morning dread I thought I’d left behind years ago. This morning I woke up and realised that I don’t have to go to group, we don’t have to stick it out til the end of the year at all if we don’t want to. So I rang Julie to pre-warn her what I was about to do and headed off to group to tell them that it would be our (as in me, Davies and Scarlett’s) last week. As I sat there trying to pluck up the courage to say it Vickie whispered to me that her and her husband had been talking and felt it was pointless just running for the rest of the year eating into the small kitty which remains to pay for a hall which no one comes to so I told her what I was about to announce and when I did Hayley imediately said ‘well let’s just call it a day today then’. So that’s that. I started the group and I finished it 🙂

We all agreed that it would be sad to lose touch and not give the children the chance to continue the friendships so we’ve made an informal plan to meet at the local soft play every other week and maybe various other free or very cheap locations on an ‘if you’re there, you’re there’ type basis. Feel very relieved 🙂

The group, thanks to Hayley, was the best one we’ve had in a while an excellent craft idea. She’d loosely based it on Diwali and using the sticky side of self adhesive vinyl floor tiles we put a coloured card border round and then used coloured rice to create pictures. The rice was just uncooked rice with food colouring shaken in it and left to dry and we made some lovely pictues with really bright colours. Might try it at home, particularly liked the idea of the self adhesive tiles – no mess sticking is always a winner for me! 🙂 Hayley also baked some scones with the older children (Davies included) which we then ate with butter and jam and the smaller ones played with various stuff including our parachute which I bought way back last year and had never taken out of the box before. Not sure when it will have another outing out of the box really, but it went down really well with all the children and has excellent arm workour potential 😉

Back home the children have pretty much been left to their own devices this afternoon while I went through various paperwork and made some phonecalls. They dragged out a box of random toys this morning which included some rod and shapes snap together toys, the sticklebricks, some cuisenaire rods and some threading cards and they have found sufficient in there to entertain them all day.

Tomorrow I have just planned with Davies that we’re going to build a city. We’re going to use the wooden train track, the various blocks and lego to build houses and stuff, the toy cars, the plastic animals and no doubt various other stuff as we think of it. I also really really want to sort the playroom out (again!) as I know there is stuff which could go over to my parents for spare toys over there, there is stuff which could be ebayed / charity shopped and new stuff which has probably not been looked at since it was presented to them last Christmas!