Had a ranty session at Ady when he got home last night. Ady, like Davies the day before is really rather good at dealing with ranty females. He listened, nodded in agreement at all my woes, smiled reassuringly when I listed things I thought I was doing well and looked aghast at anything I tried to say negative about myself. He shepherded the children away from me for a bath and brought me an icecream cone. 🙂
I then had further fall outs with both children – Davies simply would not stop being noisy and leaping about so I sent him to bed. Scarlett was discovered lying in her bed painting her nails!! 🙄 so she got very screamed at and lay there sobbing for a while. 🙁 I then calmed down and went back to each of them and we had chats about behaviour and how much nicer it would be if they tried really hard not to do stuff which they know will make me cross and grumpy. I know they’re only children, I know they’ve been poorly, I know that I have been a bitch mother from hell all week but even at their tender ages they also do *know* what is and isn’t likely to be acceptable or get them yelled at and threat.ened with adoption.
Then I drank several glasses of wine which I had not done the rest of the week due to feeling ill. And magically I started to feel much better, at peace with the world, fuzzy with love for my children and postive and happy about the future. I shall not dwell on whether this means I have alcoholic tendancies or am guilty of substance abuse, or indeed whether the week had been dreadful precisely because I was not drinking wine. I will decide that I do not have a problem worthy of a 12 step plan or sitting in a circle with other people standing up and saying ‘My name is Jemima and I am an alcoholic’ (yes, Jemima, I wouldn’t use my real name would I? And I’d wear a brunette wig and a raincoat and big tinted glasses too) and clapping everyone else whenever they spoke. I will not fret about my reliance on wine any more than your average woman’s dependance on chocolate, Eastenders or cigarettes. Until the day I am spending more than 1/4 of our monthly food budget on supporting my drinking, sneaking to the fridge before lunch to have just one glug straight out of the box, using wine ‘in cooking’ for baking cookies and snickerdoodles to eat at 10am or tipping a small measure into my bottled water to get me through the day I will pat myself on the back for giving up spending money, shopping for clothes, shoes, make up and Lush products, not reading celebrity magazines any more and being clean of Book People orders for six months now (applause).
Anyway, I digress (and no, it’s not the drink talking 😉 ) so I drank some wine, got two more CVs finished and ate a rather lovely dinner of stuffed jacket potatoes with cheese and bacon and steak marinated in Jim Bean sauce with peas dripping in butter and watched The Apprentice while shouting at the TV and waving my fork around to really make my point! I’ve just been looking at The Apprentice website actually and was reminded of Celebdaq which I used to play loads a few years back, might go and have a look at that later for time wasting potential ;-).
So today the sun is shining, it’s only 9am but I’ve got a load of washing waiting to be hung out, the children are playing Wallace and Gromit go on holiday really nicely together. I’m about to go and get dressed and make a picnic and then we are heading off to meet Julie, Jack and Maisie for a walk in the woods via the library to collect the books I ordered which have come in. I’ve only got about 10 days left to read this months reading group book and so far I have managed the first chapter and already decided I don’t really want to read it, so I need to try a bit harder with that one too.
Back later. 🙂
Well I swore to myself that I was on a 2 week break onced back from Scotland. I lasted about 10 minutes after gettign through the door when i was laying in the bath the Tony had ready for me and appeared glass in hand. Each day since I have said the same and failed. Makes my day seem that little bit brighter LOL! I like these sunny days as the drinking can start at lunch time (as it did yesterday) and no one bats an eyelid.
Might buy a mac…
Comment by Roslyn — 06 April 2006 @ 11:18 am
So what time are we seeing you on Monday Ros? 😉
Comment by Alison — 06 April 2006 @ 3:41 pm
Nic, I reckon you should go on the next series of the Apprentice 😉
Comment by Sarah — 06 April 2006 @ 5:27 pm
Hings nic, you do seem to have a blue mood about you at the moment.
FWIW, I think you are doing very well adjusting to the frugality as even here we are finding the pinch hard at times, and I’ve never been a real shopper.
Comment by HelenHaricot — 06 April 2006 @ 6:53 pm
No idea! will consult be sitter and find out later!
Comment by Roslyn — 06 April 2006 @ 8:40 pm